LilOompa85

So everything has been going pretty good.  I am still working at the big AE and still have no money.  Hmmm... What else?  Still going to Emporia, but I don't know for how much longer.  I am wanting yet another change in my atmospher.  I have 4 semesters left and I don't know if I even want to finish them.  I just want to get started with my life and doing the things I do.

I am always looking for models.  So if you are in the Wichita or Emporia area and you want your picture take tell me I can do it for FREE!

Lets see, I am still single and doing great.  I like just flirting and having fun.  Not too stuck up on anyone right now.  Even if I don't have love right now doesn't mean that it doesn't exist.  Yep that is about it.  I will try to do better about posting new things.  It is just that it has been so crazy.

A rare occasion when you come on the phone
It's like a holiday I celebrate alone
Remember every  detail when you spoke
The way my name drags across your throat

You've been a burden all at once
Sometimes I  can't find the light switch
Sometimes I'd rather dwell in the darkness
Sometimes I'm better off alone
Sometimes has become home

Well you  don't want me and I should have know
My heart can't seem to let you go
You're not so special, you're not even close
You  mean the least but you take the most

You've been a burden all  at once
Sometimes I can't find the light switch
Sometimes I'd rather dwell in the darkness
Sometimes I'm better off alone
Sometimes has become home

I hear your wors so sweet, secure and flattering
I stare into the sea, as your waves crash over me
Almost upon the  shore
Your words don't flatter anymore

Sometimes I can't find the light switch
Sometimes I'd rather dwell in the darkness
Sometimes I'm better off alone
Sometimes has become home

It has been 2 years since my life has changed forever.  I would be lying if I said it has gotten easier.  Some days it has, but others it seems worse than the day after it happened.

In my time of life right now I feel torn in two, and don't know which way to go.

This is said like Will Ferral says, "I drive a Dodge Stratus" in his SNL skit.  So far everything has been peachy there.  What fun it is.  I ended up working until 3 when I was really supposed to work until noon.  I say much though because it is a job and it brings home the bacon.  I just wish I got a break that is all, because I don't like working for 6 hours with no break that gets hard.

It is odd that I keep thinking of a boy.  He told me last September that he was scared of me.  It made me think though.  Was he scared of me or was it us that he was scared of?  With some people I can give myself into love with mind, body, and soul, like I did with this boy.  I've realised I can't do that so much now.  I hold back with everything in my heart, because it doesn't seem right to me.

Just saying if you want to go camping July 9th give me a ring.  It will be lots of fun for all.  I think there is something like 13 people already coming but we want more, so if you want to go, you can.
Now to get ready for the party of the 4th.